My life has been such a roller coaster lately that I never know from one moment to the next what I'll feel. I had a few medical tests today that lifted my spirits. On the first visit I made to this doctor at the end of last year, I was shocked to discover that my weight was 204 lbs. It's amazing how it can sneak up on you. I've been recovering from shoulder injuries/surgeries for almost 5 years, but I've finally reached a good range of motion, and I'm pain-free since my cortisone shot in May. I started the Cool Runnings "from the couch to the 5K" program in June. I was elated today to find that the 50+ lb weight loss has ended my need for cholesterol medication and anti-hypertensives. I felt so good after my dr visit that I dressed for the cold weather, grabbed my ipod, sunglasses, gloves and warm headband and hit the pavement for a 5 mile outing. I ran the first 3 in 28 minutes 36 seconds, walked 1/2 mile, and ran another 1-1/2 miles for good measure. I found a little piece of myself that has been missing for a few years.
Losing weight also gave me the courage to think about 'dating' again after almost 10 years of being alone. Oh my! The stories I have to tell about that! But those will wait for another day.
Right now, I've discovered someone who takes my breath away, but the distance between us is a huge deterrent. Not to mention that he seems just as 'damaged' by past events as I am. When we get to spend time together, we cook together, go hiking, go running, snuggle up and watch movies, and just enjoy being. The time apart brings difficulty and misunderstandings. I guess the public domain isn't the best place to divulge details on the hardships of a long-distance relationship.
It's quiet at night with all the kids in their beds. We got through 3 hours of playing with no fighting and no crying. 9 o'clock snuck up on me before I knew what was happening. We hurried to clean up before mommy got home, but she might catch on when she finds the disaster that is now Jordan's room. OOPS! Sorry Mommy!